2/1/2013

Things get very convoluted at times I go through intense down period,,and then I snap out of them,,,,the main problem for me is that I find myself stuggling with little to do,,,I have tried to offer myself to volunteer at some places but seemingly get rebuffed with silence ,,,although it was through the mail and perhaps I should have done follow up phone calls,,,ideally I'd likd a P/T job doing something if only to occupy my head ,,something simple and low stress,,the money is somewhat irrelevant for all practical purposes,,,not that I am rich or well to do,,,but I am able to get along on my expenses and that is fine ,,,,I also want to accumulate some new friends locally along the way,,,,from a variety of new venues other than in recovery meeting which are fine ,,,but there is a wider world ...I hope things open up a bit more ,,,I need to try harder I guess...