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This sounds like way too much work to just be able to read and share posts about a variety of things. I was on supportgroups.com, and I'm lost here. I could join a ton of support groups here, but there's so much I don't know what to do. I need to have my journal open to the public? Fine, but it better help me somehow. I need to set a goal? OK my goal is to fix up my house and build a true beach house on the coast. I grew up on the beach. I want to go out on the beach. It needs to be done NOW. I'm cutting the 5 year plan short to 4 years. This better be my last summer in this house. I am trying to get my 401k roll over money bc I'm on disability, so right now would be my lowest tax bracket until we get piddly cost of living rasies. Supposed to get one every year, but in 11 years, I've gotten 2. My body is broken down and useless. That's why I have to get out of here asap. Time IS running out, and I'm only 42. I have 0 quality of life. I have no decent meds to help me anymore bc people kept stealing them, and after I moved to a different state, they slowly started taking them all from me. You wanna take my pain meds, I can deal with that. but take away my head meds, then I'm gonna have problems. physical pain = head pain. head pain= physical pain. Most drs don't get that, I understand, but that's how it is with me. Because of how and why I became disabled. No one can believe how I became to be the useless lump that I am today. They think I'm a faker or crazy or both. They forget that I always had at least 2 jobs and put myself thru college. ok so basically I need some friends and people to show me the ropes, here. bc I'm sick pf supportgroups.com, and everything else is specific to one subject. So please help me. Also, is there any way my updates can be sent to me here, and not my email? I never use my email, and it would be so much easier to get any info from this site ON this site? Please don't make me have to go to my email all the time, bc honestly, that will only make my head worse. Here's a few groups I qualify for, if that makes any difference in who can help me out here:anxiety, depression, PTSD, lonleyness, chronic pain, back pain, rape, sexual abuse (all from my lovely hubby!) So please me, bc it's already stressed me out so much just to get to Thank you