1st day out

Today was the first day I left the house besides going to visit the doctor on Wednesday.  I went to mass the road there is really bumpy which made me really tense up. Tomorrow is new years eve and my little one keeps asking what we are doing even though I habe told him multiple times that we will stay home and not really do much because I can't. This really breaks my heart. I wish I could tell him different but there is not much I can do. I had more blood on my collar this morning and am beginning to think I must move a lot at night. I try not to move so much or do much so that my recovery will end soon but I can't really prevent anything while I sleep. Even though I only left the house to go to mass today it was enough to make it seem like I'm not a prisoner in my home. My lower back didn't hurt as much today and hope it stays like that for the next couple of of days which the news say will be super cold.