So, last night I had a dream that my son Ralph was telling me that my X's family was going to kill me and that I needed to watch out for them. I really need to work on my own guilt surrounding my husband's suicide and my son's overdose. I loved my x husband, but his moods were so out of control. I have guilt about filing for separation from him and that he immediately killed himself. He went into the car with a "grill" subsequently lit it and passed away of carbon monoxide poisoning. It was horrible for all of us. I have empathy for him because he was mentally ill with bipolar disorder. I never blamed him, but my guilt is insurmountable. Then just 3 years later, Ralph accidentally overdoses. I've been dreaming of Ralph so much lately. He is constantly in my dreams, and like last night it was a nightmare. Just venting, it helps. Love everyone here so much!