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WELL I USED TO LOVE THE FALL AND ALL THE HOLIDAYS ,BUT YOU ALL KNOW SINCE MY DAUGHTER PASSED THEY DO NOT MEAN THE SAME ,MY LIFE HAS CHANGED ALONG WITH ALL MY FEELINGS, I DO NOW ENJOY THE CHANGING OF THE LEAVES AND THE BEAUTY GOD GIVES US, MY BROKEN HEART AND SPIRIT WILL REMAIN BROKEN AND I AM LEARNING TO LIVE WITH IT. I KNOW I AM NOT ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND OTHERS SUFFER TO. I BELIEVE GOD IS LETTING ME KNOW I AM ONLY HUMAN AND WE WILL SUFFER ALL IN DIFFERENT WAYS, I HAVE LEARNED TO BE MORE COMPASSIONATE AND TO HELP WHERE EVER I CAN, I DO SOME TIMES FEEL BROKEN DOWN AND LOTS OF GUILT. MY BEST FRIENDS IN MY LIFE ARE ON DS, AND I THINK GOD LEAD ME HERE AND WE ALL HELP EACH OTHER. EVEN A ROSE LOSSES ITS LEAVES AND DIES, SOME SAY LIFE IS WHAT WE MAKE IT ,BUT I IN KNOW WHY MADE MINE SO SAD, BUT I STILL BELIEVE WE GO THROUGH THINGS FOR A REASON AND SOME DAY I HOPE TO KNOW WHY SOME OF US SUFFER MORE THEN OTHERS, I SEE HOW SELFISH THE NEW GENERATION HAS BECOME AND THIS SADDENS ME, TO SEE MY GRAND KIDS SO SELFISH AND UN CARING AND SOME HOW THINK THE WORLD OWES THEM SOME THING I DO NOT KNOW WHERE THAT COMES FROM BECAUSE I THINK I AM OWED NOTHING AND MUST EARN EVERY THING IN LIFE. BUT YOU CAN NOT MAKE PEOPLE LOVE YOU OR EVEN BUY THERE LOVE , THEY EITHER DO OR THEY DON'T AND I AM ACCEPTING THIS . I AM ALIVE AND HERE FOR A REASON,AND GOD WILL LEAD ME WHERE I NEED TO GO AND HAVE PUT IT IN HIS HANDS ,AND AS MY DAUGHTER ALL WAYS SAID TO ME ,LET GO AND LET GOD MOM.
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You you are loved Shirley, very much so, please remember that, love and hugs, susie x
Sis, I hear you and my heart breaks for you. I wish i could cheer you up. Im always here for you. I know thie fall and winter season is harder for you and i wish your family was there for you more. You are such a lovley person and try so hard to see the good and be understanding when your world seems so confusing. IDK why things go the way they do at times, but we have to stick close to the ones that are there for us. I am here for you but i know that the miles apart make it less comforting. Im glad you can journal but i wish it was on happier terms. I know things will get better things are in Gods hands and i believe he wants good for us so please dont lose faith.I think evrybody grieves at their own pace and you are still struggling and i dont blame you. You have a lot of reasons to feel like you do and no one should ever judge you, I dont know what God has in store for you but he must have some high place in heaven for you. i wish you could come visit me but we will meet someday when the time is right and we are both feelin better physically . I want you to call i dont care how many times a day you call, if u need me im here. Im sending all the love a person can possibly send without bein there. I know i cannot take away your heartache but i hope to be a lil joy in your life. You have purpose here and you are a great friend and sister. Please know i look forward to hearing your voice on the phone, chatting on ds and recieving mail from you. You have become a confidant to me and i value your wisdom and knowledge. You have so much to offer so many people, so THANKS YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND EVERYONE ELSE. YOUR LIL BRANDON IS SURE LUCKY TO HAVE YOU AND I BELIEVE YOU WILL SEE MORE OF HIM AS TIME GOES ON AND HE WILL BE FREE TO VISIT OR EVEN MOVE IN WITH YOU WHEN HE IS OF AGE. THERES GOOD AROUND THE BEND JUST BUT SOMETIMES WE HAVE DETOURS TO GET US THERE. IM NOT GIVING UP ON YOU FINDING THAT PEACEFUL PLACE WHERE U CAN FEEL JOY AGAIN. MY HEART, THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. LOVE YOU SO MUCH THATS WHY YOUR MY SIS AND NOT JUST A FRIEND. I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME IN VIRGINIA AND HOPE TO HEAR ALL ABOUT IT. (((HEARTFELT HUGS)))
YOUR SIS, LESLIE XOX
THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR FRIENDS AND SISTERS IN LOVE, SHIRLEY
Shirley that\'s all we can do, learn to live with it and do the best we can. Sending love, Terry
Do the best with the tools we were given but never knew there would be so much to be fixed and some things just aren\'t fixable. That is why we come here and why our sisters of the heart walk beside us. I love that saying \"let go and let God\" (if only I could remember to use it\'s wisdom more). Take care Shirley. Your friend, BW
Shirley my heart breaks for you. Sending lots of prayers that with each day that passes, your heart won\'t feel so heavy. Hugs
Bless you Shirley - you are loved and are such a blessing to so many. Know you are held in prayer.
Hey Shirley..........here with you,,,,we share,,,we hug,,,,and the leaves change...and we\'re still here...((hugs))
Dear Shirley: I am so sorry you are filled with grief, for I know that it brings pain and many, many questions. In my own life, the loss of my Mom brought about many changes in my heart, including anger against God for allowing her to suffer and die instead of healing her and letting her live. I do not understand His perfect plan for each of us, no more than I can understand why this happened to your daughter. All I know is that God can heal broken hearts in the midst of grief and give us hope in this life. Scripture has been so helpful to me in recent months in giving me a sense of hope even though I still struggle with many things in this life. Remember that you are not alone, that you are loved and cared for, and that God does have a purpose in mind for your life. I do care about you and will continue to always keep you in my prayers.
Blessings and grace to you with many hugs, m\'dear.--Kelly
Hi Shirley, I understand what you are feeling so well. So much of the beauty of this world can trigger the sad emotions of grief which is so hard. It is really only recently that I have been able to experience things in my life in a more enjoyable way. I have been more able to connect the beauty and the good with Greg and our life together and that is bringing me a lot of comfort and peace. I was afraid that I would not ever experience anything in a good way again. It takes time...a lot of time and patience with ourselves. Please be gentle with yourself. Thank you for being here with us and for sharing your feelings. It helps us all. Peace and love to you, Anne
Hope your spirits improve soon Shirley. I am thinking of you.
Lots of comforting hugs Shirley.
The holidays are painful to me also. Christmas is the worst. Shopping for the children helps me keep my spirits up It has gotten a little easier but I am a work in progress.
Sending you hugs to help you through..... Penny