Frustrated

I am not getting messages is any any one else having that problem they used to come through my e-mail they would alert me if I had any ,I really looked forward to them so I thought i was lonely before well this tops that , I do get hugs. I am a little better went to my old therepist and he has helped ,seems every thing is up side down lately. I am trying to stay numb, its how i am getting by right now. I want to live again and hope I learn how to come back through a life of pain and suffering, my anxiety is the worst right now ,Maybe I am trying to hard. I need to relax and smell the rose's I them them. Well when I pray i pray for any one suffering, I am going to try to look at the glass half full. I am hanging on, it looks like rain to day and tomorrow but I am going to pretend there is some sunshine, Life does go on.and so will I.