another day
I do not even know what to say there so much on my mind,I wish I could get out more and do things but with my health problems and really no one who would take me any where,there not much to do but think. I do not talk much about family because most friends and family do not come around ,know one really wants to be bothered with any one who needs help,my husband is not the father of my children for he passed away. So he really does not care. I lost a baby to beside my husband and Denise my 37 year old daughter. Her name was Mallisa,and she died the day she was born which was Nov.11,1975, It was my son birthday to.and when I came home ,he said mom now on my birthday you will be sad because of the baby, and I promised him that I would not and I never acted sad on that day. God gave me one that day and took away another. But I think of her to. I do thank God for what I have, I try to be thank full as I have mentioned how thank full I am to have found so many friends here. I do just take one day at a time. I would love to be able to share good times if there were any .I live my life for others because that is what God would want. The weather has turned cold here ,it going down to 37 tonight I do love to sit in front of the fire place. I hope every one has the best day they can.
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I hope you are feeling better soon. I lost a little boy, he died the day he was born, like your daughter. He would be 5 soon. I am so grateful I was able to be a mother, even if it wasn\'t for long. I have been unable so far, to have more children, but try to be grateful for what I do have. I understand your frustration about getting help and not being able to do more. That\'s exactly how I have felt today. Sending you hugs and hope you have a nice evening :)
i\'m so sorry squarley . you know how i understand the loneliness of not driving all too well . i understand those days of pain and depression .it seems like the combination is more than we can humanly handle . i curl up with my puppies and take a nap and pray that the next day will bring some peace . i get on the site and write to friends or respond to posts . i feel helpful &/or get support . it helps the loneliness . somehow the next day does seem brighter . perhaps , it\'s the response from my friends , a sign from god or the fact that my husband is taking me out for the day . i will pray for a better day for you .