ICK!!!

10-28-09:  Well, a sad time.....our family friend passed away.  He was only 51!  Basically, he died from repiratory distress. (the flu)  He just didn't get care in time.  He is the brother of a really good friend of mine.  I went to his Mom's last night.  It really doesn't matter how old your children are...they are still your children!  She was so sad!  Today she went to Urgent Care for "some" difficulty.  It turned out to be acid refllux.  Of course she is having that!!!  She has just lost a "child".  This is the second "child" she has lost.  We chatted a bit last night.  "Takes one to know one."  I am just so sad for the family.  This death actually effects me more than losing Craig's brother-in-law.  How sad  is that?!?!??! Crazy stuff...Scott would've been 24 on Oct. 22.  The brother-in-law died that day.  The family friend went in the hospital that day.  Nuts!  "They" say it comes in three's....I am feeling quite anxious!  And, Adam had a dream that Chris died!  I don't even want to consider that!!!  Work is settling down a bit.  I am still paranoid about the whole thing but am trying to just do my job and fly low!  I do the best I can do, every day.  I cannot do more than that.  It is my hope that honesty and doing will be all "the powers that be" will need. I am missing Scott so much!  It seems, in some ways, that I am regressing.