July 1, 2009 (LATE!) I don't really know how I feel today. I was looking at so many of my DS friends profiles only to find they have gone (from the site) or not written for a long, long, time. It made me sad, and yet, I hope it means they are doing very well. So many of these people were there for me at the beginning. I will never, even if I never "chat" with them again, forget the difference they made in my life. Now, as for others that are still here, and still support me, please DO NOT ever leave without sending me an email. My regular address is firstname.lastname@example.org Okay...I am going out on a limb posting that. However, you are THAT important to me. I know that I do not always comment on your journals or send hugs. However, I do read journals quite often. I just, sometimes, don't have the energy to type. Please don't take that the wrong way. I want to, I even start, and then stop. I do that with my journals, too. I just, sometimes, feel like my fingers won't work with my brain. Or, my heart is just too heavy. Now, for today...I am proud of myself! I actually made curtains! I hate sewing! And yet, there I was, at my Grandma's old Singer, sewing my heart out! It is the old black machine that goes only one direction! This was one of my goals for the summer. I needed to make these curtains for my back door. The sun is so intense in the evening.....those beautiful sunsets I post....that is to the West, which is where my back door is. I even lined them! Okay...my hems are a bit crooked! Whatever..... lol Tomorrow I am going to try and sew a cover for my food processer. (I actually measured it!) That should be interesting! I have a bit of left over material. It is Coke! My kitchen is decorated that way. That is what I made the curtains from....all American "tacky"! Actually, I was drawn to Coke "stuff" because of the red. It just kind of went on from there....now, it is sort of an obsession. Whatever, whatever..... Lately, I have been staying up way too late! Then, I sleep half the day away. I really need to change this habit...any suggestions?!??! It is just the quiet of the night is so nice!!! Oh....perhaps sweet justice....the company that wants to buy our building/property, in Springfield, is the company that fired me one week after Scott's death. Oh...you cannot imagine how much I want this, for so many reasons! If, in fact, they do buy it, I will contact a friend who still works there, and make sure, after the check clears, "the powers that be", know who they purchased from. It will be so sweet...so pure. They were so awful and so full of themselves. I would really enjoy taking their money! (Trust me....this is a company you all know...they have plenty!) Ahh....the mean side of me is rearing it's ugly head. Sorry. Mostly I am nice....really. But this company, and so many that work there, are truly evil! They are ALL about the money and fired so many good people, not ever looking back! Okay...I am finished rambling...time for bed.