JUST ANOTHER DAY...

Sunday night, 8-17-08:  Just another day...Although, Craig and I did go out to eat tonight.  That has not happened for a very long time!  It was okay.  We even laughed together which is a very rare occasion these days.  Just yesterday we were sort of fussing and Adam jokingly told us we needed time outs if we didn't stop.  I told him, "As you can see your dad & I don't get along very well anymore."  Craig said, "That's not true."  I told him I felt like it was.  He then told me, "Well, we need to work on that."  Maybe there is hope...  Except later I told him I wanted him to go to counseling with me in Sept.  He said he didn't need to go.  I told him I needed him to go so he could understand me.  It is sad....my friends all know me better than my husband does these days!  I got my utility room fairly clean and organized.  Finally.  I still have lots of papers to go through but they can wait until a yucky day. That was a HUGE job.  It was totally out of hand!  I feel much better going into it, now. My Scotty memory for today is so sweet.  He was about 3 and we were hiking around my farm in Fordland.  On a rock was a cute little lizard standing up.  I asked Scott what it was and he, in awe, said, "A dinosaur!!!"  Of course I laughed and explained he was close, but it was a lizard.  Later, when I thought about it, I realized the lizard was, in fact, about the size of the dinosaurs we looked at in picture books.  No wonder he was confused!  Anyway, it was too cute! That has always been one of my favorite memories. Mom starts radiation tomorrow.  I am not thrilled.  She is really not thrilled.  She is doing pretty well at the moment.  I sure hope this doesn't screw that up.  She will go 5 days a week, for 5 weeks.  We are all nervous. I have meetings & training all day this coming Tuesday.  And, I think I go in for a staff mtg. on Thurs.  Next Monday is the 1st day of school.  I am very anxious about it.  I think it will be tough getting back into a structured routine.  I don't really have a choice, though.  I have to work.  I am sure I will be okay once I get started.  I just need to stay in my moment.