DEPRESSED!

Sunday Night-Late (Early Mon.) I am so depressed!  I am using orange type because I have heard orange helps.  No luck yet....  I slept nearly all day!  I just didn't feel a need to get up.  I finally did and then I just cried.  I managed to fix chili dogs for supper, vacuum the pool (sort of), and watch a little TV.  I am getting ready to take a valium so I can go back to sleep.  I just don't know how to get out of this deep dark hole.  I was doing better, it seemed, for a bit.  Now...... I am drained.  I just don't want to do anything.  I watched "The Bucket List" last night.  I was thinking what I would write.  Not much.  There are a couple of things I think I would like to do but it is nothing big....see the desert, see a mountain.  WOO-HOO!  Nothing else, aside from my family, seems to matter.  That is pretty sad, I think.  I think I am fairly healthy, not too old, the weather today was beautiful, and all I want to do is sleep.  I am just doing time.....