I managed to leave Scott's door open for several hours today.  It still is.  I will close it before bed.  It is 9 mos. today since he died.  It has been a hard day but I have had harder.  I did manage to sort through some papers.  Not all, but some.  Tomorrow I have my EMDR and have to go see about my car ins.  I dread EMDR.  It is always so hard.  Compassionate Friends is tomorrow night too but I just am unsure if I will go.  Counseling and CF may prove to be too much emotion for me.  Craig hurt my feelings today.  Stupid really.  He woke me up to go to work this a.m.  I thanked him because on a regular day that is good.  But, when I reminded him I was on Spring Break he acted like he had never heard it before.  I told him my friends knew more about me than he does and I don't even wash their underwear.  It is true. I have friends I used to work with, calling & wanting me to go to lunch this week.  And, all of you who remember. And, others.  It isn't just about Spring Break....he forgets a lot or just doesn't pay attention.  After 24 yrs. of marriage you would think he would get it.  On the other hand, after 24 yrs. of marriage, you would think I would just get that he will never get it.  Just a bad day for it, I think.  Adam has been pissy all evening.  Don't know what is up with him.  Maybe the same as me.  It is still hard for Adam to talk about his brother's death.  Blah, blah, blah.  I need some cheese with this whine!  It is sort of storming here, now.  It is supposed to do it again tomorrow.  Nothing severe so far.  I think the grey doesn't help my mood either. Does anybody understand this DTV stuff?  I don't have cable so I have an antenna.  My atenna was pretty much trashed in the last ice storm.  Do I need a new antenna if I get the converter?  It is my understanding I do but maybe one of you know more about it.  My TV is only a couple of years old so I really don't want to buy a new TV.  HELP!!!!  Wishing all of us a little or a lot of sunshine in our lives!