Sunday Night: No luck with Scott's door, yet. I will try tomorrow. I have thought about it, but... I have been a complete slug all weekend. Guess I needed to. Craig will be working tomorrow so I can clean and sort. I just can't seem to do it when he is home. He is always in my way or asking me what something is. The kids were never as much in my way as he is when I am trying to do something. Today I have been really sad, too. It will be 9 mos. tomorrow since I saw Scott. I miss him so much. It makes my stomach ache. I hate this hollow, empty feeling. Somedays are better than others....not today. I did manage to get to the grocery. I had a fairly large list as my cabinets and fridge were getting bare. I used to stock up more. Of course, with Scott gone, we eat less. That child could eat! He would graze all day. So, I always made extra of whatever because he liked supper foods for snacks and breakfast. He rarely ate sweets and junk. He wanted the "real" stuff. Now I cook what we can eat and that is all. Anyway, I did my shopping in record time. I just didn't want to be around anyone. I think I only forgot 2 things. We are expecting storms. Again. They may be severe. Again. I am so tired of this. I want to get outside, plant some flowers, put my houseplants on my porch, open my windows, the list goes on.... Here's to a better day!
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That\'s alright - you have time to open the door - do not force yourself to do it, I still have things here of Shauns, that I can\'t go through yet. Know what you mean about people being distracting while you\'re trying to get things done. They just hover around as if it\'s productive for you or something.
I\'ve been down in the dumps also today - not sure why - just comes & goes with the territory and muddling through grief. And it\'s an angel date for you as well - they are the hardest of days for me. You did good, you went out did your shopping - that\'s more than I did today.
Take care - and you will be in my thoughts and prayers , love Deni
You can do it....I know you can...strength,love and hugs..to you...Karen
You will open the door when you are ready, take it slow and give your heart time. Keep safe with the weather, I have been watching the news and it sounds very rough. Take Care, Love and Hugs.
I hope to day is a better day for you too. These kids are so missed. I try to imagine all the things they are doing and one of them is probably making fun of all of us crazy moms for being so sad. Smile today. Love Robin
The time will come when you are ready. All Brandon\'s stuff is still in his room.
Glad you got out. I shop less now to. Quick trips. Take care of yourself. Tammie
You will do it when you are ready and not before. We\'ve had a couple of snow storms over the last couple of days. I too wish for spring and weather warm enough to garden, this too will happen. Keep looking for the one small blessing. Love and hugs cathy