Saw my counselor today.  It was a good visit and I didn't fall apart too much.  I discussed the whole weekend incident with him and he is in agreement that it was just rude.  My assignment for this week is to leave Scott's door open.  It has only been open the past 8 1/2 mos. when I am in there.  He said just to open it a little.  I will try.  It is not like I think Scott is in there.  It's just with the door open it will require me to take another step on my journey.  That is the step of acceptance.  That is a HUGE step for me.  I still argue with myself about the whole thing.  After counseling I met my son Chris and his girlfriend, Kristen, for pizza.  We had a good visit.  I ran some errands and came home.  Now, I am going to have a quick brandy and go to bed.  This time change has been hard for me.  I stay up too late, anyway.  With the change I stayed up even later.  Next week is another round of EMDR.  I hate going to counseling but it truly does seem to be helping.  Thank you and peace to each and everyone of you.