Still not feeling great so I didn't go to the garage sale "thing". I did go to dinner tonight with my husband and father-in-law. That was ok. We went, ate, and came home. That is my idea of going somewhere. We were gone about 2 hours. That is enough. I wrote a letter to Scott last night. Somehow it makes me feel better when I do. I miss him so much! I get so tired of coming on this site and going to the Compassionate Friends meetings only to find so many new bereaved parents. It breaks my heart to see anyone "join" this awful club. My heart hurts for all of us but especially those at the very beginning of this journey. I still hurt, to the core, everyday. But, it is not as intense as those 1st few weeks. It is a wonder any of us survive. So many thanks to all of you for helping me.
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Thank you for your support, it is much appreciated. I don\'t know where I would be without DS and the wonderful people here. Love and Hugs.
Glad you and Adam are doing better. Being sick makes this journey even harder. I think we will al hurt to the core for the rest of our lives. We will just learn how to continue to live with it. Wishing you the strength to do just that. Cyn
I think that writing to Scott is a wonderful idea. I do find that when I do that my tears pour...so maybe it is a cleansing. I agree those first weeks are the absolute worst time EVER...and it is so hard to see others suffering as we suffer...love and hugs...Karen
So sorry to hear you are feeling so low,it\'s a good idea writing to Scott,it will get easier over time although I don\'t think the pain will ever go,we survive because we have to,I often feel like joining my son,but then I think of all the hurt and pain for the ones left behind.Take good care xxx one day at a time xxx
I\'m happy you went out even if it was for a short time.My husband brought me a journal some time after Reggies passing but it took me a long time to write now that I do I write to him about a lot of things. Feel better. love Caroline
I too write to John and then I burn the letters, somehow it makes me feel better. Keep writing and hoping you feel better soon. Love and hugs Cathy
A gentle hug so as not to hurt your back :-)
Thank you for your kind heart.Much Love,
Cyndi
Writing makes me cry a bit more. I hope it\'s theraputic for you. I also hate to see the new parents on this site. We all know that pain and wouldn\'t wish it on anyone. Hoping you have a peaceful night. Love Robin