Still not feeling great so I didn't go to the garage sale "thing".  I did go to dinner tonight with my husband and father-in-law.  That was ok.  We went, ate, and came home.  That is my idea of going somewhere.  We were gone about 2 hours.  That is enough.  I wrote a letter to Scott last night.  Somehow it makes me feel better when I do.  I miss him so much!  I get so tired of coming on this site and going to the Compassionate Friends meetings only to find so many new bereaved parents.  It breaks my heart to see anyone "join" this awful club.  My heart hurts for all of us but especially those at the very beginning of this journey.  I still hurt, to the core, everyday.  But, it is not as intense as those 1st few weeks.  It is a wonder any of us survive.  So many thanks to all of you for helping me.