I am extra tired today!  We spent the night battling many tornados.  The hail and sirens kept me up a lot.  It was kind of hard on the nerves but I am sort of like Captain Dan in Forrest Gump when he is on the ship in a storm raging at God to just bring it on.  I used to be a wimp when it came to storms.  Now, I truly am as I stated above.  You all might think I am nuts when you read this next part but here I go anyway.....A few days after Scott died we had weather much like this. Hot, cool, tornado, windy then no wind.  I could imagine Scott just zooming around clicking this and pulling on that.  I always would tell him he was a push-pull-click-click kind of guy.  Such a free spirit.  Such a mess!  As he brother said, too, he could see Scott flip a switch and then say, "Oh, Sh**!  Well, it has been just a few days since our 4 local boys were in that accident.  And, there was another 20 year old who died of a motorcycle crash just a few days ago.  A couple of them, I understand, were much like my Scott...full of spirit.  Makes me wonder if they are playing too.  It has been warm, then tornados, now it is cold, and tomorrow will be sunny.  I don't know...but it is a thought that played through my mind and I hadn't yet journaled my own personal experience.  "Funny" things we think these days. My oldest son, Chris, is leaving for Vegas this Friday.  I am glad for him but I am worried, as well.  He had not been more than a few minutes drive away since Scott passed away.  I know none of that matters but I still think of it.  I do hope he has a great time.  He needs to.  Not a terrible day today...too tired, I think.  We will see what tomorrow brings.