be carefull adding caffeine to stacker 3. Especially when you are mad already... I am tired. I want to get away from everything. I dont know where to go. Unfortunately I only know one place to go. It is wednesday. I should know Im not going to have a good time regardless. I hear people say go have fun. I do not even kknow what to do to have fun. Yes I could go play trucks with my gs, but I want something different. I guess I want to know someone will want me. Gramma with babies. If I go to the bar and shoot some pool , the only people in there are alcoholic loosers. It is wednesday for crying out loud. I dont know what to do. i am lonely and angry. So go to class, i tell myself. but i feel lonely there too and i didnt do my assignment because i cant think right now. I don't know what to do with myself. I am being drawn to the bar because its the only place i know where people will be and i want to be around people right now. I cold go see my mother, but i dont know, maybe i just need one night to really get drunk and let it go.i hate him the lying manipulating betraying bastard. why do i care??????? why do i even care that he has chosen bars and whores by his actions? when he lived with me he wasnt home so why does it make any difference that hes not there. but i dont want to see his crap, his damned car has got to go. i could just go home and pack his shit and throw it in the garage probably way more productive than going to a fucking bar. i hate bars they suck the life out of their victims.everything is so damend complicated. I cant go just anywhere as some bars are membership only and I cant wait for that
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my mother went through something similar with my stepdad about 40 years ago. he was a horses ass that hadn\'t learned to grow up. he spent all his time in bars (and still does) finding acceptance in a bottle and all those around him looking for the same thing. i hate bars to this day because of what it did to her. she hated being alone, so she would go and sit with him while he got plastered. it eventually killed her. i can understand your loneliness and your need to fill the void he left you with. as a preacher said once, \"there are only two places people go to fight loneliness...bars and churches, and i think churches are safer\". not that i am recommending going to church, but it isn\'t a bad place to be. but the point is that there is relatively very few place to go to find some companionship where people automatically accept you based on your attendance instead of your status. bars, like you say, seem to suck the life out of you and churches, like i say, can chafe the s(k)in off you, so what\'s a person to do? go to class, turn to the person who seems the most likely to listen and ask if they want to get a piece of pie and a cup of coffee after class and talk about school, kids, life...who knows? you might meet your next best friend!