Dear DS diary,
These days...they only seem to be getting harder.  I feel overwhelmed, to be charitable about it.
I'm working with a resource my vocational counselor found for me now, which is important because there really isn't a future for me in pharmacy.  I don't function fast enough to be able to thrive in a chain store, so my opportunities for growth within the field are well and truly stunted right now.
This has been in the works for a while so I can't say it's a surprise, but as far as emotional stability is concerned I have very little to speak of right now.  That's a problem because the coming weeks have a lot of unknowns, a lot of uncomfortable spots that my jittery nerves are in no place to handle.  The stress is starting to show.  Doesn't help that the Paris attacks retriggered all kinds of stuff that my e-mail friends can only help me progress so much at a time with coming to terms with them (never mind just how many retriggers there are).
It's not helping that I'm not feeling any love for the holiday season.  Seems to get worse every year.  Probably because it gets pushed sooner every year.  This time it seems the Boston Holiday Pops concert has been pushed really early (like back in October).  I think I've already reached the point where I don't really care anymore, and it's not even December yet. :(