This is probably not going to make much sense but it seems to be all that my brain can do right now.
My body seems to have found a new way to tell me I'm having an anxiety attack. Usually I just cry. But now, it seems to be involving extracurricular activity in the toilet. It happened this morning for the second time in four days and I felt nauseous several more times at work...I could barely keep a thing in my stomach before dinner.
This happens very bang-bang, and I know when it's going to happen, but I'm basically powerless to stop it.
It's not helping that I seem to be having more anxiety these days generally. There will be eight people over at my house on Thanksgiving, which I am not wild about because I am not comfortable being around that many people...I find it overwhelming. We're getting a huge rainstorm -- three inches are expected -- tonight through tomorrow and I fear the basement might flood. I have to do eight more CEs for my pharmacy tech certification and the way my schedule is falling I pretty much have to do them at night, which will cut into the time I have to give and get support for about a week and a half. And I'm having the usual insecure feelings about myself as a person generally still.
It just feels like every day is getting more difficult instead of easier.
My body seems to have found a new way to tell me I'm having an anxiety attack. Usually I just cry. But now, it seems to be involving extracurricular activity in the toilet. It happened this morning for the second time in four days and I felt nauseous several more times at work...I could barely keep a thing in my stomach before dinner.
This happens very bang-bang, and I know when it's going to happen, but I'm basically powerless to stop it.
It's not helping that I seem to be having more anxiety these days generally. There will be eight people over at my house on Thanksgiving, which I am not wild about because I am not comfortable being around that many people...I find it overwhelming. We're getting a huge rainstorm -- three inches are expected -- tonight through tomorrow and I fear the basement might flood. I have to do eight more CEs for my pharmacy tech certification and the way my schedule is falling I pretty much have to do them at night, which will cut into the time I have to give and get support for about a week and a half. And I'm having the usual insecure feelings about myself as a person generally still.
It just feels like every day is getting more difficult instead of easier.
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Hey David,
Just because I tell you to send me a hugbook message when you need support, this is not to imply that I do not come back to check previous journals in which I have attempted to supply support, and I do look back for replies from friends; perhaps you misunderstood me this time; for you have not yet commented on my words at the 11/17 journal entry. I mean, did my words help you? At all? I need to know this if I\'m doing any good for you; otherwise, you may drop me as a support friend. And since I did not receive a notice of this current journal entry, I will only leave you a good luck with the family at Thanksgiving day.
Ambi
Actually, I meant 11/23 journal entry, David. Although it would not be a bad idea to check mark 11/17 as well. If I see you on my friends list the next time I come to visit the site fine and if not I\'m so sorry that I was unable to help you better cope with your circumstances, David. Nevertheless, please find a safe place in life for your emotions. You can do this.
Ambi
I am so there with you my friend. I wish I could offer some solid advice. I too am finding with all the stress I am having bathroom issues --gross as it is its true
Like me I would bet you need to find a way to relax.
If I ever figure it out I will let you know the secret.
Just breathe my friend pat yourself on the back and just do you best to stay calm and loving. I know easier said than done. I realize.
huge hugs to you I am here if you need me.