Dear DS diary,
This afternoon I forced myself to work on my resume.  Why I did it, I really don't know.  Guess I didn't have it in me to go after CE credits for my technician recertification that will be due in two and a half months...which would be easier to finish compared to that.  Didn't take all that long for things to go off on a tangent, either.  But I guess I made some progress, if we can call it that.
Seeing a therapist on Tuesday morning...it's not the best day for me to be doing that because I have to take some time off of work to do this, but right now I have no better ideas.  I really hate the risperidone dose that I'm on and frankly at its heart it's not stopping meltdowns in some shape or form.  Most nights now I'm just lying in bed until it's time to go to sleep, wishing that I had answers that are not forthcoming.  Nothing feels safe to help pass the time away.  I guess I could try some of said CEs mentioned above but my heart doesn't seem to be much into anything at the end of the day.
In other words, little has changed much.  I still wish I had answers.  I wish it was in me to use Skype, but at the moment I just don't trust people enough to want to use it.  I've fallen far since that one successful video call that now feels like it took place a decade ago...
(sigh)