Dear DS diary,
I wish I knew how to shut down at night effectively...I am really not getting any help with my current workload the way that it's going right now.  Most stuff seems too scary to try for a couple of nights, and I am so worried about the abuse risk because I have abused things before that it's creating its own worry in and of itself.  This is bad enough but when it goes on top of the other crap (pardon my language) that I'm already dealing with it just amplifies the feelings.
It's showing, too.  The other day, I was totally out of it.  Today was better, but I needed to take allergy medication at the top of the day and it left me feeling like I was on autopilot (very bad).  It's not looking much better for tomorrow unless this early taking of my generic seroquel kicks in soon.
I wish I had answers.  But I'm not finding them.  My spirit is breaking. :(