Dear DS diary,
A particular friend of mine here -- who I will leave unnamed for what I hope is her sake -- is not having some difficult moments right now.  I gave her some hugs and some sympathy.  She needs it more than I do.
Last night I had a fed-up episode so bad that I didn't bother with my sleep medication...and in an intriguing twist found that I'm currently doing no worse without it than with it.  Joy (heavy sarcasm here)...this means I get to see my primary in a month and will probably get some crap idea that won't work just like the previous visit did.
Something is going to have to happen soon because I'm having avoidance episodes every night now (ouch), I'm lucky to get six hours of sleep unless I am completely exhausted emotionally (yes, it's come to that)...
...I feel like I need to talk to someone live but at the same time I'm so afraid of being snippy because my sleep pattern has been cuckoo at best...I'm in a bad place right now.  More meltdowns seem to be coming.