Dear DS diary,
It is eight in the morning.  I am already wishing it was eight at night.  The monsters continue to vex me.  They see to it that I'm unable to relax because the ones related to my previous addiction issues come out every night without fail, and then make sure that I am unable to fall asleep until they are certain that I will not get enough to be able to function at full strength the next day.  My alters have having no luck fighting them off, and I myself feel powerless to do so, knowing that they will only come back.
I have had no luck at Skype for the last three nights now.  One of the big problems with only having two contacts there is that I have to hope they're available when I am, which in my heart I know is asking too much for so few contacts because I can't mindread.  But the monsters know I'm incapable of fighting them alone so without live chats they may as well run riot each and every night because they know they have free reign.
Later tonight I am going out with my parents to a restaurant.  It is already a foregone conclusion that a stress eating episode will take place.  I have basically reached my breaking point and am pretty much ready to give up fighting because what's left of my control is gone.
Damn this loss of Meebo...