Dear DS diary,
The career center called me back this morning. I have an appointment with them for Tuesday morning at 10am. Unfortunately the moment I finalized it my monsters came out to make me wish I had never contacted the center to begin with. They torment me. But I have no effective means of stopping them and no longer anywhere reliable to go for the need-you-now moments that are starting to become more frequent now. I have too few Skype contacts for it to be a safe haven.
The study guide for the PCCE exam will be here tomorrow, and with the worries I have now that only means a brand new world of hurt will soon be unavoidable in my current condition. When my parents put in a request to go out to dinner without an appetizer tomorrow, there is no way I could say no. A stress eating episode is imminent so I may as well just let it take place.
The career center called me back this morning. I have an appointment with them for Tuesday morning at 10am. Unfortunately the moment I finalized it my monsters came out to make me wish I had never contacted the center to begin with. They torment me. But I have no effective means of stopping them and no longer anywhere reliable to go for the need-you-now moments that are starting to become more frequent now. I have too few Skype contacts for it to be a safe haven.
The study guide for the PCCE exam will be here tomorrow, and with the worries I have now that only means a brand new world of hurt will soon be unavoidable in my current condition. When my parents put in a request to go out to dinner without an appetizer tomorrow, there is no way I could say no. A stress eating episode is imminent so I may as well just let it take place.
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Friend, if I may be so bold, you need to relax. Really. You know I understand how hard it can be to shut the \'voices\' up, but I also know that it\'s so incredible once you see a tiny bit of progress! Go out with your parents...eat a normal amount...then go home and congratulate yourself! You gotta make some baby steps when the opportunities present themselves, you know? Just try to see things in a brighter light...the course arriving doesn\'t have to be a world of hurt...it can be an exciting new addition to your qualifications. It\'s all how you see things, you know? Wishing you peace
^^^ Summerwind has given some wonderful advice. I am hoping that perhaps you are able to put her advice into action! Please give it a try, ok? Hugs and peace..