Update

The blizzard is finally over, and we took close to 3 hours to dig out. We still ran out of places to put the snow, the official estimate for my hometown this morning was 26.5 inches.

For a while the entire state was under a travel ban. That has since been lifted.

But I am a wreck. It's a good thing I managed to do an assignment this morning because it feels like I am not going to be able to focus on anything for the rest of the night. Even the breathing I've learned was no match for this panic episode, I felt that scared...even though the worst of this is over now.

So bad were my feelings -- we didn't have lunch today -- that when my mom wanted to feed me when we finally finished digging out to the extent that we could at 3pm, I refused. I knew I was going to stress eat, and badly. That's triggering more fears because those same stress eating concerns are what caused that terrible episode two weeks ago when I was borderline useless because my blood sugar was way, way off because I hadn't eaten much.

I'm a mess tonight, I'm breaking down for the second time today, and I hate to say it but I need a hug. :(