I just got out of chemistry class...it's an adventure to be sure. I am so fortunate that I have an outside helper because the prof was losing everyone on today's lecture, which means the lab tomorrow should be especially interesting (not in a good way).
Joanna was in this time; she checked on how I was feeling (last time she could tell I felt pissy and did the right thing by distancing herself away). I told her what I conceded here earlier in the week, that I basically feel alienated from everyone in my section, except for her.
She asked why, so of course the frustration I still feel about how clueless both the prof and my lab mates are came out. She told me she also doesn't feel that she's getting what she needs to get out of the course (which I suspected because if she did she'd have been able to help).
"I can forgive you because I can tell you're being honest," I told her, "but as for everybody else...I don't know, Joanna. I just don't know."
It's a shame the section is too big to allow for pairs in the lab sessions, because at this point the only group that I know for absolute certain I could work in without risking another blow-up is just Joanna and myself in a pair. Her ears are about the only thing left that's dragging me in for the lectures (part of me wants her e-mail just so we can talk back and forth after semester is over, but my heart is already saying good luck with that).
I was hoping this was going to be the semester when my quirks and people issues would start to show signs of being broken down. It's now plain as daylight that this won't happen, which is giving me yet another thing to lose sleep over that I don't need.
Joanna was in this time; she checked on how I was feeling (last time she could tell I felt pissy and did the right thing by distancing herself away). I told her what I conceded here earlier in the week, that I basically feel alienated from everyone in my section, except for her.
She asked why, so of course the frustration I still feel about how clueless both the prof and my lab mates are came out. She told me she also doesn't feel that she's getting what she needs to get out of the course (which I suspected because if she did she'd have been able to help).
"I can forgive you because I can tell you're being honest," I told her, "but as for everybody else...I don't know, Joanna. I just don't know."
It's a shame the section is too big to allow for pairs in the lab sessions, because at this point the only group that I know for absolute certain I could work in without risking another blow-up is just Joanna and myself in a pair. Her ears are about the only thing left that's dragging me in for the lectures (part of me wants her e-mail just so we can talk back and forth after semester is over, but my heart is already saying good luck with that).
I was hoping this was going to be the semester when my quirks and people issues would start to show signs of being broken down. It's now plain as daylight that this won't happen, which is giving me yet another thing to lose sleep over that I don't need.
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Why not start with seeing if she wants to meet up and go through some stuff after class at a time when you can both make it? There is no reason why you can\'t develop a friendship!
How big are the groups for the labs? Could you at least work in a group with Joanna so that she can help you to stay calm?
Where did the prof loose you, you know I\'ll help if I can :)
Also your people issues are beginning to break down. You actually admitted to Joanna what is going on, only scratching the surface but it is a start and that is awesome! So proud of you! Well done!!
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Unfortunately, there\'s more reason to walk away from her. She still can\'t help to the extent that I need it (conceded), and all the hints in the world from you can\'t hide the fact that I no longer am willing to work with anyone else in my section in light of what happened last week. The odds I\'ll be able to solo pair with Joanna -- and I\'ve talked to my e-mail friend Leah about this -- are being placed at somewhere in the neighborhood of 200 to 1, which for my purposes can be counted as nil.
Safe to say the people issues are trumping everything else right now and trouncing them besides.