Ick

I can't seem to sleep without letting this out and so I guess I'm going to have to.
Today was very hard.  I didn't sleep particularly well -- more panics -- and frankly I'm very worried about Friday's lab in the wake of yeterday's group discussion disaster.  I think I said this in a comment on my journal yesterday but after seeing said discussion just go to pieces, there's not much reason for me to think the lab will go any better (where the first run there was also a disaster).
The panics have been bad enough to leave me in a spot where I'm behind.  So I e-mailed my Australian friend and asked her what to do considering that I'm going to be working Saturday mornings for a while.  Somehow she remembered a similar situation I had last fall when a math course was causing me grief and wondered if maybe I should do a one-time class cut on one course now like I did then, and use the time to stabilize my course position so that I'd only need to be consistent going forward.
Since it looks like I have to look into locating extra help for my chemistry course (that's going to be a difficult trick), it's going to be awfully hard to talk myself out of taking that route tonight because I'm just so scared.  I can't think of any other way to do it and the way things are going I'll probably have a sleepless that causes more chaos at some point, so what's the difference?

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Friend19
Friend19

Ick is right.. I feel so bad for you. I don\'t know what happened during your group discussion, but you just got to find a way to not think about things so much. I have a huge paranoia problem, it can get so bad for me I have trouble telling the difference between things in my head and reality. I have to find ways to basically shut my brain down, especially at nigh. I really think this might help you as well. It wouldn\'t be good to add lack of sleep to the mix of school stress. Other then doing your study work, I think that you should set yourself a rule- once you walk off your college campus you are not aloud to bring home it\'s stress. Just leave it behind to deal with the next day. Perhaps your friend is right also about doing the cut on one course...It wouldn\'t hurt. I think it\'s better to take your time and stay less stressed out, then to do everything as fast as possible and literally kill yourself with course work and anxiety.

HUGS
WyndWytch
WyndWytch

where dropping it would help give you more time, you are still going to have to take it, so it will forever be over you. Once again you are worrying about a day that isn\'t close enough to really be worrying about. You said you are worrying about friday which you haven\'t made it through thursday. this will mean that thursday you will be stressed out already since you were worried about friday and it never had a chance. you really need to focus on one day at a time and not the remainder of the week. hard as it is, you are setting yourself up by worrying ahead of time. it is a compounding spiral.