I come into tonight with at best mixed emotions.
The good: I aced my first summer course. And I actually feel like I earned the grade that I got for a change. I was able to keep with the readings pretty much until the end when I had to settle for putting summaries of the last few chapters together, but by then it didn't matter because I had what I needed to do the final paper plus. This is so cool: I can't remember the last time that I felt I'd earned a good grade on anything.
The bad: This upcoming wedding is tearing my nerves to pieces. More details of it are coming out: There's going to be popcorn (?) and a couple of games lying around (???) during the reception hour after the wedding. But I'm still basically being told to hide the day before and the day of, and that's making my heart angry. Very angry. I know how to hide behind stuff too well and it has not been good for me; I really don't need or want to be encouraged to do something that I know is going to make matters worse about this than they already are! AAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!
Being around 25-30 people I don't know isn't helping either, but with the kind of support I'm getting from immediate family about this, which is basically nothing at all, I'm really starting to doubt that I'll be comfortable about this until the morning after.
Vent over...for now.
The good: I aced my first summer course. And I actually feel like I earned the grade that I got for a change. I was able to keep with the readings pretty much until the end when I had to settle for putting summaries of the last few chapters together, but by then it didn't matter because I had what I needed to do the final paper plus. This is so cool: I can't remember the last time that I felt I'd earned a good grade on anything.
The bad: This upcoming wedding is tearing my nerves to pieces. More details of it are coming out: There's going to be popcorn (?) and a couple of games lying around (???) during the reception hour after the wedding. But I'm still basically being told to hide the day before and the day of, and that's making my heart angry. Very angry. I know how to hide behind stuff too well and it has not been good for me; I really don't need or want to be encouraged to do something that I know is going to make matters worse about this than they already are! AAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!
Being around 25-30 people I don't know isn't helping either, but with the kind of support I'm getting from immediate family about this, which is basically nothing at all, I'm really starting to doubt that I'll be comfortable about this until the morning after.
Vent over...for now.
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Popcorn??? That\'s a first..........
Sweetheart, Whenever I have to do something I don\'t want to do, I try to imagine it being already over. No matter how awful you think this day is going to be, It will end. And you will get through it. And before you know it, it will be a memory.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!! I know you can :-)....................................
Congratulations on Your Good Grade !!!!!!!..........I\'m So Proud of You!!!!!! :-)