(sigh)
Just my luck; Meebo is nowhere to be found on a night when I need it. So I'm going to try to leave it here and see it if helps (I doubt it).
To try to put it as simply as possible: Even though summer semester has been okay so far, today I still hit the point where any belief I have in myself sinks to nothing and hiding mode kicks in. There was just no relighting the fire today, and a sudden unexplained and uncalled for panc episode about my midterm paper, which ruined my sleep last night (so much for the seroquel working) didn't help matters at all.
This is a bad sign. I just know from experience that once the fire goes out it takes a lot to bring it back, and by then it will almost certainly be scramble time again. Just once I want to be able to avoid saying that I was lucky to get out with the final result that I get in a course, but with the apparent self-esteem issues I have this appears to be not forthcoming.
Arrrgh, I wish Meebo wasn't out tonight!
To try to put it as simply as possible: Even though summer semester has been okay so far, today I still hit the point where any belief I have in myself sinks to nothing and hiding mode kicks in. There was just no relighting the fire today, and a sudden unexplained and uncalled for panc episode about my midterm paper, which ruined my sleep last night (so much for the seroquel working) didn't help matters at all.
This is a bad sign. I just know from experience that once the fire goes out it takes a lot to bring it back, and by then it will almost certainly be scramble time again. Just once I want to be able to avoid saying that I was lucky to get out with the final result that I get in a course, but with the apparent self-esteem issues I have this appears to be not forthcoming.
Arrrgh, I wish Meebo wasn't out tonight!
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Yeah, where is meebo? I log in about once a week now and for the past 3 or 4 I haven\'t seen it. It sucks because I was starting to use it a lot more. Argh...I\'m sorry you lost your fire/motivation...It happens to me a lot to, and I can so relate about how the candle gets blown out, it\'s hard to light a new flame. I usually just keep plugging away. That\'s also about the time my schedules and time sheets come out. I find scheduling out my day helps me keep on track because without motivation I just want to put it down for later...And then later, and then later...And well you know what I\'m talking about I\'m sure, that later never comes and the work ends up being half assed at the last minute. Maybe try schedules...Put down when to study, do homework, work time...Lunch dinners, even your sleep and relaxations time. Put it up somewhere in the house where everyone can see it so they know when to shut up and be quiet for ya. Hope that helps and hope you make it through the summer. If you were in Oregon I bet you wouldn\'t find it so hard because our weather has been absolute crap and it doesn\'t feel like summer at all. I still walk through the cold rain everyday thinking it\'s winter. ...Blah..
HUGS