So yesterday I started charting what I do for a week, as per one of my friends' requests (later she'll use this information to help me figure out what's wrong and what I can do about it).  Already, though, a few things are coming up:
Positive: This is making me pay attention a little more.
Negative: I could have seen this one coming...already I'm wishing I had done something like this years ago.
Major negative: Also already discovering that the way my long days go in particular, it won't be a question of if I self-destruct again, but when.  In particular -- although this isn't mentioned on the chart -- by the time I come home I'm feeling discouraged enough that all I want is to be in bed.
Positive: The journaling is better defined now.  New worries came out last night that otherwise I probably wouldn't be able to express until it was too late.  Don't have answers for them, but it's better than not expressing them at all.