One big problem that I have with trying to relax nowadays comes from a really bad habit from the days when I had all those addiction issues in full force.  In a nutshell, it's feeling I don't have enough of something to a point that isn't healthy.
Example, because I had a moment like that last night: I miss playing pinball.  A lot.  It used to be one of my favorite things to do when there was an arcade reasonably close by (there isn't anymore).
I have Pinball Dreams and Pinball Fantasies for my iPod Touch, and have had them for a while now.  8 tables between them.  You'd think that would be enough, right?
But somehow, and really without a lot of warning, I'm searching online last night for what else might be out there for pinball titles.  This I don't consider to be a good sign, because something very similar to this happened when I had my puzzle addiction -- seeing what else was out there -- and it very quickly got out of hand from there.  I really would prefer to not have that happen again, with pinball or anything else for that matter.
It's hard to explain, really...kinda like I unconsciously get into this habit of collecting stuff in things that I like when in reality I really don't need or want a lot of it to be content.  I'm only really noticing this pattern now, but how to stop it....?
Idk.