Today was better...but I'm still feeling the effects of my sleepless episode from Thursday night, and it's obvious I won't make the progress I had in mind considering that Friday was wide open (for those of you keeping score: I gamely tried anyway, but after exactly 40 minutes my eyes said bye-bye, and that was the name of that tune).  So much for feeling better...I guess I'll just have to be content to stay out of red.
So I'm just going to fess up about a few things tonight, and you can say what you want about them, good, bad or indifferent:
* I am horrible at breaking any kind of project, assignment, and so on into chunks...and I'm too embarrassed to ask how I can do that on the boards.
* The full story has more to it than this, but from a face-to-face trust standpoint it's been working with me like so: If you're male, forget about it.  If you're female, I might give you one chance only...and only if I sense you're safe.
* I can't enjoy anything anymore without abusing it, I want to hide so often...and training myself with time limits hasn't worked.
* I have this gift, it seems, for pissing away golden opportunities.  But with really no self-esteem to speak of (there goes another secret, but I can't say I'm sad I let that cat out of the bad), what should I expect?
* If you really needed to know, the two topics I won't discuss under any circumstances are religion and politics; I am hyper-cynical about both.  But just about anything else is fair game within reasonable limits.