On days like this -- in this case the one before classes start -- I know my thought pattern is my biggest enemy...but I don't know what to do about it.
I have a hard time focusing on now, so of course I can't help but wonder just how big the workload is going to be and how I'm going to be able to handle it.  I try not to but I keep drifting back to the problems I had early in the spring...and I wonder if that's going to happen again.  Given that, it almost feels like a given that I'm going to have to find a way to be here semi-regularly if nothing else; I'm having a lot of problems propping my own confidence level (which is really weak right now) at the moment.
May not have too much to worry about tomorrow because I don't expect too much to come out of the first writing class, but after that the gloves are going to come off and I know it.  It's hard for me to not feel scared.