Well, today I made progress. I didn't let my ex into "my emotional space" I talked to him once on the phone and kept it short and brief and kept strong. I can't get sucked into his negative bullshit that he tries to blame on me everytime we talk. He says I am "destroying familes" When all I want is for him out of my life. He set me back at least 5 years financially and did some other thing I can't even talk about here. I am going stay strong and seek the help and support I need to get myself back on track. Who knows maybe I can even have a healthy loving relationship someday? I need to give myself plenty of time though, but It sure would be nice just to get kissed! Well for now that will be in my dreams ...Tomorrow I WILL EXERCISE AND WATCH WHAT I EAT!!!