I'm happy tonight.I have someone special in my life now.We will be spending Christmas apart because of his business comittment we will be celebrating after he returns home.But it's ok.It's really nice to have someone who wxcepts you for who you are good and bad..He's not hiding anything from he which is good because i don't like being lied to.I've had enough of that.Ryan is very special to me and I am thankful for him.It's nice not to be scared off with a sudden marriage proposal.Those tend to make me run.See,Ryan and I have been dating since thanksgiving but we just decided that we wanted to see only each other and that makes me feel so good.It's nice to have someone that really cares.I didn't want to say anything before because I didn't want to jinx anything.