I hope the coming week will be a better one for me.This past week was horrible.BP took something else from me that I wasn't quite ready to give up but if I really look at things I think I had to.I can't handle certain things by myself.That is the thing I hate most about BP.It robs you of things.It has cost me relationships and a few other things.It's not the small things it takes but the big things like being able to manage your own life that get you.That is hard for me to handle.I have trouble admitting that I can't do certain things because I'm very independent.I feel like I lost something I can't get back.How do you live with that?It makes me feel bad about myself.