I really feel bad right now.I hate the thoughts of everybody getting together tomorrow.Things just haven't been the same since my dad passed away last year.There will be something missing tomorrow and it's going to be so hard.I hate family get togethers anyway because my sister and I don't get along very well.I just don't want her to say or do something that is going to be a trigger for me.It's going to be stressful enough for me.I wish I had my best friend to talk to but I don't right now.I just hope she isn't mad at me or something,I don't remember doing anything to cause her to just stop talking to me.I just don't know.