I had a good day today.Yesterday wasn't so good.I had a frustrating day at the doctor.For the first time since I got really sick I began to get scared.I began to think they were going to just let me die.I didn't think they were doing all they can to get the cancer out of my body.Having leukemis is not fun.I have so many health problems besides leukemia but I'm not giving up hope.Maybe I was just feeling sorry for myself.I think I'm entitled to do that every now and then.I can't say anything much to my husband because he doesn't want to hear about it.He thinkd that if we don't talk about it it isn't there.It worries him.I'm trying very hard to stay positive and for the most part I am.Sometimes though I get frightened.I think that's ok.