17 Days
Today marks 17 days free of the casino and gambling. Knocking on that 21 day change my bad habit rule. Can't wait.
I have bills to pay and I hope my business will generate enough money to pay them. I hope I do not have to dip into my small savings to bail me out. I would not be in this position if I did not gamble away my nest egg. I wish I would have dealt with my feelings about things that bothered me instead of ignoring them and escaping at the casino.
Oh well. I must forgive myself and move forward. Wish I could fast forward a year from now when I will be clean for a year.
I hope to see the difference financially and also not feel bad anymore for the money that I lost.
I have bills to pay and I hope my business will generate enough money to pay them. I hope I do not have to dip into my small savings to bail me out. I would not be in this position if I did not gamble away my nest egg. I wish I would have dealt with my feelings about things that bothered me instead of ignoring them and escaping at the casino.
Oh well. I must forgive myself and move forward. Wish I could fast forward a year from now when I will be clean for a year.
I hope to see the difference financially and also not feel bad anymore for the money that I lost.
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