I'm crying again now. How could he do all this to me? I cannot even look at a man in that sense. I wont even get a feeling for other men. And he has to go send emails to tens of gals for sex. Just kills me. 
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I cried again today at work. I jumped a red light while getting on the freeway. I'm feeling so horrible right now. I don't even want to look at him. Everything comes back to me. How can he betray me like this? He doesn't deserve anything. why should i give him another chance? He has been doing this over and over. I hate him. I hate him.