day 2
Other reasons why I don't want to smoke:
1. When I smoke I spend a lot more time at home and being home means I deal w everyone's destructive/shitty behavior which makes my life seem endlessly miserable. Which makes me smoke more. Its a vicious cycle.
2. Sick of letting myself down. I want to quit, its really hard, I keep failing at it. I have to learn how to believe in myself again.
3. Its a fucking crutch. I don't need it.
4. Its a hole in my pocket- I can't afford it
5. I want life to change.
6. It fucks up my appetite so the only time I can eat is when I'm high
7.Quitting SUCKS. I can't sustain this for life so inevitably I will have to quit sometime.
8. There has to be more to life then this. I know there is and I'll never find it if I don't quit.
1 day is more momentum then I've had in a while. Please God give me the strength to make it through the day w out smoking
1. When I smoke I spend a lot more time at home and being home means I deal w everyone's destructive/shitty behavior which makes my life seem endlessly miserable. Which makes me smoke more. Its a vicious cycle.
2. Sick of letting myself down. I want to quit, its really hard, I keep failing at it. I have to learn how to believe in myself again.
3. Its a fucking crutch. I don't need it.
4. Its a hole in my pocket- I can't afford it
5. I want life to change.
6. It fucks up my appetite so the only time I can eat is when I'm high
7.Quitting SUCKS. I can't sustain this for life so inevitably I will have to quit sometime.
8. There has to be more to life then this. I know there is and I'll never find it if I don't quit.
1 day is more momentum then I've had in a while. Please God give me the strength to make it through the day w out smoking
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You\'ll do it... two steps forward, one step back. Just be easy on yourself if you give in to temptation. Berating and guilting yourself to change never works.
I feel for you, stay strong my friend I know how it is. Sometimes I have contemplated the use of drugs just to stop feeling the way I do but I know in my present state of mind I would probably end up worse.
Thank you both. It\'s true- I\'m way too hard on myself when I fuck up with the weed thing. I\'m gonna give it another try- today is may 9th. I\'m not going to smoke today. We\'ll see. I\'m pretty sure I\'m ready to quit. If I\'m not then I\'ll just try again later when I am.