day 2

Other reasons why I don't want to smoke:

1. When I smoke I spend a lot more time at home and being home means I deal w everyone's destructive/shitty behavior which makes my life seem endlessly miserable. Which makes me smoke more. Its a vicious cycle.

2. Sick of letting myself down. I want to quit, its really hard, I keep failing at it. I have to learn how to believe in myself again.

3. Its a fucking crutch. I don't need it.

4. Its a hole in my pocket- I can't afford it

5. I want life to change.

6. It fucks up my appetite so the only time I can eat is when I'm high

7.Quitting SUCKS. I can't sustain this for life so inevitably I will have to quit sometime.

8. There has to be more to life then this. I know there is and I'll never find it if I don't quit.

1 day is more momentum then I've had in a while. Please God give me the strength to make it through the day w out smoking