venting

I feel so unimportant right now. I bought some stuff for my nephew for easter- not only did he not like it at all- he told me so and offered to give it back to me. That sucked

Then I'm walking out of my friends place getting ready to go back to the hell that is my condo and my brother calls- the selfish piece of shit- I tell him I'll call him in a minute bc I'm walking out the door- he won't get off the fucking phone. He just keeps talking- he was like "well okay real quick bc I only have a minute... Blablabla". And all I heard was "hold on- ur needs mean absolutely nothing to me..."

Then my friend and her fam come home- they were on vacation and they were all so happy together talking about their time away. I feel like I'm never going to have that. I feel like people like me just don't get that- people like me get people like my stupid brother. No one that loves me enhances my mental well being in anyway at all. Like not at all.

I don't want to go back there. I spent the whole week alone here and I didn't feel like a loser at all. Now I'm going back home and all I'll be able to focus on is how much my life sucks.

Well fuck it- I guess that's just life sometimes