Exhausted

I have been taking the bus and train everywhere I go. Geo doesn't want to be driving around and I can take the bus and save money on tolls and gas. I have a free bus pass, so it doesn't cost me anything. The trip planner thing does not work and I have to pull out all my schedules and figure it out that way. I am on a shake diet along with Geo, but I cheated today... after the bipolar support group meeting we went out to eat and I ate a ton. I'm just glad I didn't purge, even though I really wanted to. Geo is progressing on his weight loss... 16 pounds in 2 days! He can do it... I think he really is committed now. I'm trying my best not to enable him. It's so hard, since we moved in together I would always bring his sweets from the store or some junk food and soda. He is sticking to his diet and they want him to lose 41 pounds in 3 weeks on the diet. He just needs to be close, and at the rate he's going he will do great. I lost weight, but after today's binge I probably gained it all back. I got this protein shake from Walgreens and it was totally disgusting. So tomorrow I'm going to go back and get my regular shake. I will try and update more... I just feel so tired from having a totally thrown off sleep schedule. One day I wake up at 7 am, then 1pm, then noon, then 8am.. it's all over the place. I need to get my schedule to be waking up early so I can get more stable. I have a colonoscopy on the 19th to check to see if I have collitis or something else. I'm not looking forward to it.. I have to be there at 7 am. Geo is taking me since I'm going to be dealing with the sedation. I'm happy that he is there for me when I need him. I love him so much.