Up and Down
I have been going all around with my moods. I got my meds and so I didn't have to have a break in them, but they aren't working well. I'm still hallucinating and getting depressed, so I think it's time for a med change. I have to talk it over with Geo, though, because he knows my moods and knows when it's just my time of the year. I got to see my old psych, Dr. Raoli. I like her. She was impressed when she saw me... She hadn't seen me in years and saw me when I was 280 pounds. I'm at 220 now, so it was a big change. I used to have long hair and now I have it short. I cut off 12 inches to donate to Locks of Love and just kept the short hair. She will take a look at the notes from my old doctor and see what she thinks about changing my meds. She didn't want to change them without looking at my chart to see how I've been doing. I had an okay day then (Friday). Today I woke up at 12, had my coffee and English muffin and still was really tired. I went back to bed around 1 and slept until 3. I felt really good then, so I got up and started my day. I did go for a 1.5 mile walk (30 minutes... that's how long just 1 mile would take me when I first started). I'm tempted... there is a 5k run/walk for cancer in February but it's $50. I can see about raising some money... and then I would try and get Lisa to come with me because it's in the next county up. I just don't know if I could fundrraise that... I suck at fund raising. Still, I know there are more, cheaper, races. I can walk 5k, I know that. It's just the pace might be too fast for me. I know when I walk my first 5k I will probably finish last, but I will finish.
My friend Carol is in love and is marrying this guy from her past and now she totally ignores me. She doesn't return my calls or texts. I don't know what happened to her... I know she's still around since she's posting on our forum, but she hasn't called me. I'm hurt. I just wish she would call and talk to me for a bit and take just a bit of time away from James. I used to talk to her every night, and now I don't hear from her for days. I just hope I don't lose her as a friend... she's a great friend and I miss her.
My friend Carol is in love and is marrying this guy from her past and now she totally ignores me. She doesn't return my calls or texts. I don't know what happened to her... I know she's still around since she's posting on our forum, but she hasn't called me. I'm hurt. I just wish she would call and talk to me for a bit and take just a bit of time away from James. I used to talk to her every night, and now I don't hear from her for days. I just hope I don't lose her as a friend... she's a great friend and I miss her.
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You have made some great progress my friend! How great that you got to see your old Dr again.
sorry you have been so up and down and I am so glad you got to see your old doctor. hopefully se will sort things out and get you up and running. I cant even think how to fundraise for myself, so I cant help you there:(. maybe try and if you cant keep looking for free ones. it is great you got out and walked, remember baby steps, you haven\'t walked much and I know for myself how it is to start again and to build up strength and speed. that is lousy about your friend, that isn\'t right. sometimes friends let all things slide when they meet a guy, and I thin it backfires big time. you have been a great friend to her, she is missing out. I am so sorry you are hurting. I hope she will wake up and get back with you as a friend should. many hugsss
It\'s great that you were able to see your old dr. I hope you can stay with her sounds like you have a good relationship with her.
I hope things level off and you hear from Carol more. It\'s just that she\'s probably getting used to being engaged and has a lot to do. It would be nice for her to make time for an old friend
Good job on the walking:)
As for your friend..give her sometime but a good friend would make time regardless of her personal life
a lot of people do that when they have a serious boyfriend or girlfriend and then you don\'t hear from them again until they break up and are between guys. don\'t be hurt, everyone is different. some never change though, they may marry and be gone forever or marry or get settled in and come back similar to before.
i didn\'t know lisa was from broward county? or is the run in broward.
best of luck with it and with new meds. xxoo