Feeling Down
Geo has been giving me a lot of attitude lately. I can't wait until this all blows over and I can get back to my life. I've been avoiding talking about it in my journal, but what are these things for if not for venting?
So here's the drama: Geo is inviting a woman (who he says is like a sister) to stay at our house for an undetermined frame of time. It could be a week, it could be a month. I will go crazy watching them have fun together and me just being the third wheel. My borderline is acting up and I'm feeling down. Geo is giving me issues for just wanting to hug him. I'm just waiting for a friend to call so I can have a good cry. I went to the gym today and it helped a bit. I'm going to try and make it to Zumba tomorrow. I want to go, but I need to get my butt out of bed on time and not be so depressed. Heather, Geo's friend, isn't going to come until late Feb and she hasn't bought her ticket yet. As soon as she gets her's, I'm going to get my ticket to go see my mom. I'm going to stay there until Heather leaves. She's getting a one way ticket here. I trust Geo not to do anything... he's in too much pain anyway. I just know he's going to lavish attention on her and ignore me. That's going to kick my Borderline into high gear. Geo said in clear terms that if I cause drama while she is here he is going to leave me. That hurt so much, and I need to get a good cry out.
So here's the drama: Geo is inviting a woman (who he says is like a sister) to stay at our house for an undetermined frame of time. It could be a week, it could be a month. I will go crazy watching them have fun together and me just being the third wheel. My borderline is acting up and I'm feeling down. Geo is giving me issues for just wanting to hug him. I'm just waiting for a friend to call so I can have a good cry. I went to the gym today and it helped a bit. I'm going to try and make it to Zumba tomorrow. I want to go, but I need to get my butt out of bed on time and not be so depressed. Heather, Geo's friend, isn't going to come until late Feb and she hasn't bought her ticket yet. As soon as she gets her's, I'm going to get my ticket to go see my mom. I'm going to stay there until Heather leaves. She's getting a one way ticket here. I trust Geo not to do anything... he's in too much pain anyway. I just know he's going to lavish attention on her and ignore me. That's going to kick my Borderline into high gear. Geo said in clear terms that if I cause drama while she is here he is going to leave me. That hurt so much, and I need to get a good cry out.
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Oh Larissa I\'m so sorry, you go ahead and cry sometimes it does help you feel better (even just a little). I\'ll be praying for you.
a good cry is beneficial, I find that when I do, and many times I wish I could it is a release of sorts. I wish this wasn\'t happening, and geo is showing some colors that are making you sad and depressed, I am so sorry. hugss
I feel better today... I had a good cry with my friend, and then today I helped out another friend.
i\'d leave too, if i were you, even just for the attitude without the guest. he should have ASKED YOU FIRST if she could come down. don\'t know how old he is, but its rude to just DO that.
that is another reason having TWO places is better than one. even if its a cabin in the middle of nowhere or an rv on an acre of land somewhere. guesthouses are for having guests. real houes, aren\'t.
what\'s with the unknown amount of time thing?
hope you feel better soon. have a great time at zumba. if i were in miami i\'d want to go to a zumba. bet its great! xxoo