Sad Day
Today felt like a really long day. I woke up at 8:20 when my FitBit alarm went off, took a shower and got ready to see my therapist for the last time. It's the 17th anniversary of my dad's death and so I wanted to see her for support. We didn't talk much about it... I'm not depressed over it anymore, I'm just sad and nostalgic. We also talked about the subpoena and getting a lawyer. I have my new therapist meeting on the 21st and court on the 23rd. So my new therapist is going to get all the worries about that dumped on him or her. I can go see my old therapist if I want, but I have to pay $60 a session. I can't afford that, so I'm just going to wait until my appointment at the clinic. I don't have much to say today... I'm just tired and want to go to bed.
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i still want to get a fit bit. have to look for one. sorry to hear about your dad...Its always scary to get a subpoena of any sort. it would give me a panic attack. so funny, i used to work in court and now court gives me panic/anxiety attacks. i don\'t even like seeing it on tv. best of luck!
hope you feel better. is it your new meds or lack of meds making you feel bad? xxoo
Awwww lots of hugzzz headed your way .... my mom has been gone 26 yrs next month... I know what you say about not being depressed over it at this point thats how i am too but sad is a very correct word thats how it hits me. I think im more sad than anything else because I look around at all the people i know and they still have both of their parents and i just feel i miss out on so much because ive grown up without a mom.
Its so hard to switch therapists... that would cause me alot of anxiety. I just dont like the getting to know a new one process it takes so much time. I think trust is something thats built and switching is difficult to build that trust all over again.....but wow i wouldnt be able to afford $60 per session either :(
Hope you get some good rest tonight
larissa,i relate to your sadness about your dads death, yes the depression is gone but the feelings of sadness and what if linger no matter how many years. it will be 23 years on oct. 15th that peter died and it is the reversed, I feel so bad my children grew up without their dad, to young to even remember. many hugs to you. changing therapists would be an awfully hard thing for me, I can well imagine your anxiety. I hope he is a kind, caring therapist and works for you. hope today is a better day. hugss
You will be sad . I hope you get threw this ok. It\'s hard when you lose a parent or a loved one. My mom\'s anniv. is this month too.