Feeling Good
Today was actually a good day. I woke up at my normal time with no problem, hung out in bed for a while while I woke up, and started getting ready. I didn't have too much desire to go back to sleep. I took klonopin last night to help get me to sleep, and I had to take another one at 8am since I wasn't sleeping well then. But I got up and didn't feel drugged, so that's okay. I'm just worried about my level of klonopin use. I've been using it for a couple weeks now almost daily. But between the mixed episode, insomnia, and anxiety I have to take it. I can't afford to miss out on sleep and go manic. It seems that now I need about 11 hours of sleep to function okay. It's better than the 14-15 that I was doing a couple of months ago. I go to sleep around midnight and wake up around 11. I lay in bed for a while, just relaxing and letting myself wake up slowly. I can get out of bed on a second's notice and be out the door in 10, but I like lying in bed just relaxing to start my day.
I went to work today and it went well. I got to do some of the letters, but I was getting confused between a lot of the things that Tiffany was having me doing. One minute I'm doing referral letters, then I'm calling to make appointments, then I'm entering data into the computer. I had to ask her a bunch of questions, but I still managed to help her out. I'm really liking working with Tiffany. I hope that I can get assigned to her. I found out today that Gerry, one of the women that used to work there got moved, so then everyone that's left has more work. There's a lot of turnover there... I didn't think that there would be, but there is. So far I have seen 6 people get fired or more. I've been there since November, so it's not like I have been there for a year. The office has less than 10 people working there, so it's a lot to have more than half of them get replaced. It's not easy work... they do put you under a lot of stress if you are a full time employee.
Still, if I could, I would want to work there. I like doing the work for the most part and now that I know all the computer stuff it makes it even better. I like working on the computer more than writing. I know that there is a way to do the referrals on the computer so you don't have to write them out by hand, so I want to see about asking one of the girls about that tomorrow. This way it makes it easier on me. I can type a heck of a lot faster than I can hand write. Plus, the boxes you are supposed to write in are so tiny that you can't fit all the information you need in them if you want it to be legible after you fax it. I try my best, but that's the best I can do. If I had the computer, I could change the font and be able to fit it and have it still be able to be read.
Mood today was good.... It was sprinkling all day. When I was on my way to work I got rained on a bit, and then on my way home it was mostly clear. Since it was clear, I decided to go for a walk after work. I'm going to try and get into the habit of going for a walk after work. I did 2 miles today, and I wasn't even tired. I could have done more, but I had to get home and cook dinner. We had something to watch on TV tonight, so I had to get dinner done early so we could watch TV and have me still have time to be in the room and do my nightly stuff (check my email, respond to messages, post and do this journal). As it is, it's late since we didn't start dinner until late, but that's okay. I will be done by 10 and I can start getting ready for bed then. I usually talk on the phone from 10 to 11 and then get ready for sleep. By the time I actually fall asleep it's midnight.
Food today was good... I'm in my calorie range. I'm actually close to the high range of it since I woke up this morning at 8 and after lying in bed for a while I started to get hungry. So I had a bowl of cereal. It's a sugary cereal (one of Geo's that he doesn't want to eat anymore) so it has a lot of calories. That, and I had a cookie at work. The cookie was yummy. I ate it slow because I'm trying to eat things slower. Well, dinner I inhaled. I don't like eating lukewarm food. I like it hot or cold. My tongue is a bit burned from the rice (I made stir fry with rice) but that's okay. It will be better in the morning. Anxiety was kept under check today. I think having a routine helps. We will see what tomorrow brings, since I have to go into work again. I should be able to make it in if I sleep well, but I don't know how I'm going to sleep. I've been waking up a lot in the middle of the night. I hope I sleep well tonight!
I went to work today and it went well. I got to do some of the letters, but I was getting confused between a lot of the things that Tiffany was having me doing. One minute I'm doing referral letters, then I'm calling to make appointments, then I'm entering data into the computer. I had to ask her a bunch of questions, but I still managed to help her out. I'm really liking working with Tiffany. I hope that I can get assigned to her. I found out today that Gerry, one of the women that used to work there got moved, so then everyone that's left has more work. There's a lot of turnover there... I didn't think that there would be, but there is. So far I have seen 6 people get fired or more. I've been there since November, so it's not like I have been there for a year. The office has less than 10 people working there, so it's a lot to have more than half of them get replaced. It's not easy work... they do put you under a lot of stress if you are a full time employee.
Still, if I could, I would want to work there. I like doing the work for the most part and now that I know all the computer stuff it makes it even better. I like working on the computer more than writing. I know that there is a way to do the referrals on the computer so you don't have to write them out by hand, so I want to see about asking one of the girls about that tomorrow. This way it makes it easier on me. I can type a heck of a lot faster than I can hand write. Plus, the boxes you are supposed to write in are so tiny that you can't fit all the information you need in them if you want it to be legible after you fax it. I try my best, but that's the best I can do. If I had the computer, I could change the font and be able to fit it and have it still be able to be read.
Mood today was good.... It was sprinkling all day. When I was on my way to work I got rained on a bit, and then on my way home it was mostly clear. Since it was clear, I decided to go for a walk after work. I'm going to try and get into the habit of going for a walk after work. I did 2 miles today, and I wasn't even tired. I could have done more, but I had to get home and cook dinner. We had something to watch on TV tonight, so I had to get dinner done early so we could watch TV and have me still have time to be in the room and do my nightly stuff (check my email, respond to messages, post and do this journal). As it is, it's late since we didn't start dinner until late, but that's okay. I will be done by 10 and I can start getting ready for bed then. I usually talk on the phone from 10 to 11 and then get ready for sleep. By the time I actually fall asleep it's midnight.
Food today was good... I'm in my calorie range. I'm actually close to the high range of it since I woke up this morning at 8 and after lying in bed for a while I started to get hungry. So I had a bowl of cereal. It's a sugary cereal (one of Geo's that he doesn't want to eat anymore) so it has a lot of calories. That, and I had a cookie at work. The cookie was yummy. I ate it slow because I'm trying to eat things slower. Well, dinner I inhaled. I don't like eating lukewarm food. I like it hot or cold. My tongue is a bit burned from the rice (I made stir fry with rice) but that's okay. It will be better in the morning. Anxiety was kept under check today. I think having a routine helps. We will see what tomorrow brings, since I have to go into work again. I should be able to make it in if I sleep well, but I don't know how I'm going to sleep. I've been waking up a lot in the middle of the night. I hope I sleep well tonight!
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Sounds like you had an over all decent day... food was good and got some exercise in and spent time at work and then spent ttime with Geo too... very balanced day... WOW i would say thats awesome! Hope tomarrow is just as good :)
from the sounds of things you had an overall real good day. that would be great to get into the habit of walking after work, it is so helpful for your mind, i find i de-stress and relax. yeah for food intake, booo on burnt tongue. i tend to eat fast too and i have slowed down my lunch and i find i enjoy it better and actually taste the food more. heres to another good day!! hugss
Ditto on thumbs up on the good day! I always think have structure to the day is a good thing.