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Major headache all day. Carved a wand. Took a hot to cold shower. Still very tired but wow this headache. My hearts tired, wishing but failing. Haven't cut. Haven't drank.
Anyone whose a cutter/ self injury etc. Have you ever had a scar itch? Three cuts very deep, the scar is high on the skin, and five six weeks later it itches.... ? It's different
Still thinking of the one whose got my spirits so low. Worried about him. Scared. Sometimes I wish I were numb. Feeling heartbreak is what tells me I still feel a certain way. How could anyone understand me when I don't understand this?